I’m always thinking about what I want to do and now it’s time to do as the time to act will only ever be done in the now! So let’s act and be done with time!
Excuses for not acting are for the thinkers who just think! For many years I’ve been intending to write but it’s so easy to put down the proverbial pen and discontinue writing, because of an unabiding fear of how I will be perceived. Not by strangers or even people I know, but by myself.
— Kaukau (3 December 2019).
A couple of years ago, my eldest son Kyle, his father Boris and I were sitting at a Maccas restaurant and I lamented that I’d not led an eventful life and, Kyle stated that I hadn’t led an eventful life before moving to Australia. I corrected him and said, “since Ive moved to Australia”. He corrected me by saying that my life had been eventful for what I had done for others. Poignantly true. However, I don’t always receive thank yous and people aren’t grateful for the things I’ve done for them, in fact I’m often shunned for it. Thus, I stopped helping everyone else and started focussing on myself.
Sunday April 19 2020 – Alot had changed thanks to COVID19 and I’ve been focusing much of my energy creatively, studying, writing, gardening, DIY, taking and using my myriad of photographs, learning Te Reo, vocal practice and engaging with people in person. My entire world has changed because I have removed all mental limits and opened myself up fully to myself and thus, others.
Evolution of self and elucidating the pathways for others to see.
This blog is about how I worked through insanity and slowly began to practise my way to sanity and now my journey is pushing me to a state of no-mind where I can no longer cause problems for myself or for others. Practise makes permanent and it’s nice to be able to see through the illusions. Now all my life and professional skills coupled with my education and passions have culminated to enable me to help you see your path. It’s there in front of you ….. visit Facebook.com/kaukau.life.
There is no such thing as good times or bad times……… there are simply situations where somethings are great and one is grateful and some situations where somethings aren’t so great and ones nerves are grated! The latter applies to me 99% of the time!!!!!!!
8 March 2017
Music is my passion and I love all genres. However, I spend very little time listening to music, as I’ve given up music for a number of years. This I aliken to ripping one’s heart and soul out of one’s body! To numb the excruciating pain, I became obsessed with my youngest son Amani’s sport.
No good comes of obsession, no matter how honourable one says one’s intentions are!
There are always repercussions.
There are always victims.
The underlying premise of pain, anger, resentment and loathing is always fear!
Fear will always make itself manifest because one invests energy into it by thinking about it!
The thing and or person that one fears the most is in the mirror.
It’s fed by the toxic thinking mind, which inhibits joy and creativity.
Who am I? I am you!
Although, this is my journey. Perhaps you’ll see yourself reflected in my footsteps and learn where to step!
There are people who walk the talk, and people who talk the walk. Over the years, I’ve had to walk the talk of others and, in turn I’ve made my sons walk other people’s talk. Number 1 question to ask …….. why?
Being at peace, accepting and non-judgemental is really difficult so now I need to learn to be in a state of surrender …. accepting untenable things as if I chose them and allowing all the negative emotions to dissipate. Thus enabling wisdom to prevail and to remind me the problem exists only in my mind, which is insane. Now I am at peace 😍