I’m always thinking about what I want to do and now it’s time to do as the time to act will only ever be done in the now! So let’s act and be done with time!
Excuses for not acting are for the thinkers who just think! For many years I’ve been intending to write but it’s so easy to put down the proverbial pen and discontinue writing, because of an unabiding fear of how I will be perceived. Not by strangers or even people I know, but by myself.
— Kaukau (3 December 2019).
A couple of years ago, my eldest son Kyle, his father Boris and I were sitting at a Maccas restaurant and I lamented that I’d not led an eventful life and, Kyle stated that I hadn’t led an eventful life before moving to Australia. I corrected him and said, “since Ive moved to Australia”. He corrected me by saying that my life had been eventful for what I had done for others. Poignantly true. However, I don’t always receive thank yous and people aren’t grateful for the things I’ve done for them, in fact I’m often shunned for it. Thus, I stopped helping everyone else and started focussing on myself.
Sunday April 19 2020 – Alot had changed thanks to COVID19 and I’ve been focusing much of my energy creatively, studying, writing, gardening, DIY, taking and using my myriad of photographs, learning Te Reo, vocal practice and engaging with people in person. My entire world has changed because I have removed all mental limits and opened myself up fully to myself and thus, others.
Evolution of self and elucidating the pathways for others to see.
This blog is about how I worked through insanity and slowly began to practise my way to sanity and now my journey is pushing me to a state of no-mind where I can no longer cause problems for myself or for others. Practise makes permanent and it’s nice to be able to see through the illusions. Now all my life and professional skills coupled with my education and passions have culminated to enable me to help you see your path. It’s there in front of you ….. visit Facebook.com/kaukau.life.
There is no such thing as good times or bad times……… there are simply situations where somethings are great and one is grateful and some situations where somethings aren’t so great and ones nerves are grated! The latter applies to me 99% of the time!!!!!!!
8 March 2017
Music is my passion and I love all genres. However, I spend very little time listening to music, as I’ve given up music for a number of years. This I aliken to ripping one’s heart and soul out of one’s body! To numb the excruciating pain, I became obsessed with my youngest son Amani’s sport.
No good comes of obsession, no matter how honourable one says one’s intentions are!
There are always repercussions.
There are always victims.
The underlying premise of pain, anger, resentment and loathing is always fear!
Fear will always make itself manifest because one invests energy into it by thinking about it!
The thing and or person that one fears the most is in the mirror.
It’s fed by the toxic thinking mind, which inhibits joy and creativity.
Who am I? I am you!
Although, this is my journey. Perhaps you’ll see yourself reflected in my footsteps and learn where to step!
There are people who walk the talk, and people who talk the walk. Over the years, I’ve had to walk the talk of others and, in turn I’ve made my sons walk other people’s talk. Number 1 question to ask …….. why?
I used to waste a lot of time thinking about useless nonsense, feeling persecuted, resenting and loathing the very things I wish I could have back. Appreciate everything you do with love, even your mistakes and the mistakes of others, living each moment as if it’s your last because in time, it will be.
Any vision, dream belief is achievable once a strategy is in place. Part of which requires acknowledgement, surrender and complete acceptance of what is, identifying mental roadblocks, creating goals, creating self-talk and mental skills that will provide motivation and consolidate the necessary behaviour to achieve the desired outcome.
I’ll be very clear …. if you’re in a mental rut, overweight, have an addiction, broke, are being abused, including by oneself, in a mental place or doing anything other than what you really want, you employed all of the behaviours listed above to get there.
After a week away from home, my youngest son asked when I was returning home because he missed me and that footy starts July 25 2020. “I don’t know” I responded. Whenever I used to receive such a response from the boys, knowing that I knew that they knew, I used to say, “well if you don’t know, who would know”. Everywhere around the world people are asking “when are things going back to normal?” … the response? “I don’t know”! Truly I understand the meaning of those words now. We all need to be at peace with “I don’t know!”
Unprecedented cooperation and goodwill has caused humanity to unite as one … let’s make that our primary focus and take the opportunity to deconstruct weapons, persecution, racism, prejudice and fear …. let’s invest in humanity!
R U OK exists because an ordinary 16 year old man Jamie, asked an ordinary man about to jump off a bridge, an ordinary question … “Are you OK?” An extraordinary campaign was launched that saves people’s lives. Ironically, the people who advised me to be selfish are people I’ve helped. I guarantee if I hadn’t helped them, they would not be OK!
Why do I help? Because I will never be that person who questions what they could’ve done and said differently to a person who successfully commits suicide. Thus, I will continue to be accused of “being extra” ordinary.