Being at peace, accepting and non-judgemental is really difficult so now I need to learn to be in a state of surrender …. accepting untenable things as if I chose them and allowing all the negative emotions to dissipate. Thus enabling wisdom to prevail and to remind me the problem exists only in my mind,Continue reading “In Melbourne where I am most safe and feel most comfortable, it’s easy to be at peace.”
Both good and bad! Recognising how I once allowed the bad to happen enables me to see the toxic mental constructs that caused my demise. It’s why I can see the insanity in what people do. On the flip side, I use this knowledge to know that if I can practise my way to failure,Continue reading “My capacity to visualise and focus on what I want, coupled with a willingness to work hard is how I’ve achieve everything I’ve ever done ….”
We are currently living in the fairytale where the emperor is wearing no clothes. Are you part of the crowd pretending to see what isn’t there, are you the emperor or are you the little boy who points out reality? Where you stand matters!
So, I suppressed and neglected all of my talents to enforce the delusion and I ran like the gingerbread man, away from myself. Fate intervened and forced me to see everything as it is and finally, I stopped lying and living with an agenda. It is what allows me to create unfettered, exposed and vulnerableContinue reading “The hardest thing I’ve ever had to let go was the self reinforced lie that I was unworthy because that meant I was untrustworthy.”
The fact is that freedom actually means I am free of thinking that other people are a problem! Light bulb moment – I always thought detaching from people meant that I no longer included them in my life, so this morning I gave myself permission to detach from my expectations of what I wanted otherContinue reading “I always thought freedom meant I was free of other people and their problems”
Yes other people can physically hurt me but nobody can hurt me mentally if my mind no longer operates. Finally, I am broken and I’m not looking for a solution. I don’t feel better but I’m no longer burdened with a lie. People say they want honesty but, what they really want is a reinforcementContinue reading “I’m tired. My mind can’t maintain the illusion that I’m in danger from an external force anymore.”
This morning I was thinking about gangster warfare in New Zealand and I created the title about midday and left it. Little did I realise that my two boys would have a physical altercation and fight one another, both in tears from the emotional trauma. This is one legacy that I had created. I hadContinue reading “Whanau vs whanau, for who’s benefit?”